Still on Holiday. :)


OK, the migraine is a little less bothersome now. After 2l of water and about the same amount of home made raspberry lemonade and a McDonald’s meal I’m feeling alive again. Thank goodness.

So today is another awfully lazy day, just hanging out in our room. To be honest, I’m still not feeling well, and I think I totally overdid it the last few days. I tend to do just that: I hardly ever recognise my limits till it’s too late. As soon as I have the ability to do something I want to do everything… and it doesn’t work well that way. After so long, I just crash, and it’s a perfect time for depression to take over, because in my own eyes, once again, I fail.

I fail at being “normal”. I fail at what I think I should be able to do. I keep comparing myself to others, instead of comparing where I am to where I was just a few weeks (and months and years) ago.  Or if I compare myself to myself, I compare myself to my 18-year-old self, strong, healthy, determined. Of course I get depressed.

Maybe not today. I just climb into bed with my lover, to snuggle and talk and feel safe in his arms, and just enjoy that I have him, his love. I’m just the most fortunate man on earth.

10 Responses to “Still on Holiday. :)”

  1. De says:

    Glad the migraine has subsided some. Hope it does not come on again.


  2. Andi says:

    Nem gy?zöm elégszer mondani, hogy vigyázz magadra! Ne vagánykodj, mindent csak szépen, lassan fokozatosan…
    És annyira örülök, hogy Te meg Kevin vagytok egymásnak.
    Épp ma mondtam neki, egy gyönyör? mondata után, hogy csakis miattatok hiszem el, hogy létezik az önzetlen, csodaszép, ?szinte szerelem.
    És nálatok elhiszem, hogy ez örökké tart! 🙂

  3. doesitevenmatter3 says:

    Aw. 🙂
    Glad the migraine has subsided.
    It’s hard NOT to overdo…to forget what your body has been through. So, for the sake of not overdoing again…keep up the snuggling, talking and enjoying him. 🙂

  4. Jill says:

    Perhaps you could read this to yourself when you awaken, dear Hevel. 🙂

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